Its too hot for words. I just keep leaving the house and getting nothing done.
"The Naked Cowboy" a Times Square legend who is probly the only reasonably dressed New Yorker in this heat.
We go to the library...we go to church...we go to stores...and try not to buy things....or we just drive around with the a/c on or the windows down. In the car we can breathe and the kids can take naps and I don't feel unexplicably angry at ridiculously small infractions. (Its not just me folks...LINK.) But then eventually we have to come home and figure out what to not cook for dinner and find some way to get the kids to settle in their beds and then lie there in the sweating dark trying to sleep ourselves. I am not a girl who deals well with extremes of temperature. I might have to get motivated and hike down from the attic with a window a/c unit and try to install it myself.
Am struggling with Time Management. Urgh. This is a concept I struggle with. I am afraid of being a controlled and obsessive, scheduled and freakishly non-human person. I also have a big problem with prioritization because I have trouble cutting things out of my life. I have a huge issue with limiting myself to only x number of things that I "have time to do" because that means I cut other things and it also means I may never realize my potential because, see, I'm limiting myself to imagined potential preemptively. Yes, I'm a little over idealistic but, I like that about myself. I wanna be that way, you know? I want to have a lot in my life and I want to push my limits a little and see what crazy amounts of stuff I can get done that I never imagined would work into "the plan."
Yes, and that's great usually but, we've made some major changes in our daily schedule lately and that has been a killer for me. Suddenly, the kids and I are chronically overtired, I have no discretionary time, and there's a million things I'm panicky about that aren't getting done or aren't happening fast enough. Meh. Am not a fan of this bit. I hate the emotional tone my life has at the moment. Too much stress, raw edged, white knuckled, drive the kids like they're a herd of donkeys mania. Am not a fan.
Am working on a little prioritization and outsourcing and list item cutting and am also working my way through listening to this really great talk by the somewhat famous, brilliant and now sadly deceased, Randy Pauch. Enjoy! Am totally inspired.
